hey there.

i was reading my previous blog posts. i realise that i have not really change that much. if i didnt remember wrongly that i promised myself to change when i go poly. it seems that nothing has changed. my temper is still so bad. i'm still so not confident in myself. i really should build up my confidence. but i dunno how. another thing that i realise is that, "dunno" is a frequent vistor to me. i have a lot of doubts in everything i do. i always ask people "how" and reply "dunno" to other questions. is that what i'm capable of? keep asking people how to do things? i hate it! but its part of my personality that i'm very indecisive. how to change that? jem is right. but i need to learn how to change that habit.

goodnight ;D

omg, jem is forcing me to sing!
he is forcing me to do something i dun like.

BIG BULLY!


sob. i cant believe that i made friends with him!
i shouldnt have make friend with him lor!
i shouldnt have called him when i was lost!
its the worst decision that i have ever made.


listening to taylor swift's songs ;D
love her!

he forced me to watch naruto also! sobb~~~~

hey hey!

how's christmas? fun? lonely? merry?

well,. my christmas was quite fun and very full!
spent my christmas with my two cute cousins (not very cute at most times)
first time spending christmas with them. we ordered pizza and bought some snacks from botak jones. however botak jones's cheese fries is a failure! it taste alright when you eat in, but when you take away, it taste sucks. the cheese harden like a rock!!! the pizza taste alright though. its from canadian pizza.

after eating, we went to watch movie. avatar! a damn nice movie!!!! highly recommended to watch! movie ended at 11 plus. so after that we went home.

i got a organiser from my cousins, a very cheap one though, from popular. its only 1.95. and its i force them to buy for me. hee. but i love it! thanks tingting and weiqiang!!


i'll upload the photos when i'm free.

suddenly miss playing mahjong! haha, fingers itchy. ..

well. i got to do my projects already! left one week of holiday! got to cherish the time. .


goodbye!

my baby cousin!! damn cute!

in airport


karen aunt's wedding!
i love her soo much!



BACK FROM HK!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!~

smiling pui ;D




hey!! did i mention that i'm going to HK next week?

hee. next wed 6pm i will be in HK already :D
but i feel quite lonely. because my jie is not going with us. she will be having her exams next week! so sad! i will be alone with my mum. feeling a bit worried, my mum has very blur character, hope we will be alright ;D

anyway. i'm so happy! finally, i get to see my new niece. hee ;D

went swimming with my cousins today. my first time swimming in the past five years.
but we only just went for a dip. like 45 mins? hee. then we rushed back to watch the last episode of "fa zheng xian feng".

went out with jeremy yesterday. i bought a lot of things for my HK trip. bought a Dano long seleve knitten shirt, hoody from FOX. helped my mum to buy 5 bottles of OLAY cream, costing $120. haha. i felt very shiok, cause this is the first time i can shop and not feeling guilty that i spend so much. because, its not my money! and i only bought a few things for my own! hee. kk. so i shouldnt feel guilty that i spent around 200 bucks yesterday.

another thing ! aiai just gave birth to 5 cute little hammies. they are so adorable! guess who is the father of these babies? its pui pui~! aiai's son. shocking eh. i didnt know that mother and son also can. haiz. but maybe in their animal world, there's no these kind of mother and son relationship or watsoever. we might think that having baby with her own son is like digusting. but every world is different. so maybe their world is different from ours. hee.

i camwhored my aiai and pui pui ;D



aiai!



pui pui

MST!!

i hate tests and exams! omg! this time round, i got 6 papers for mst!

finished consumer behaviour paper

next week...
first paper, business law!
second paper, elecronic business
third paper, human resource
fourth paper, financial management
fifth paper, supply chain

help~

:(

i'm so tired of quarrelling with you or argue with you for such a small thing.
i only treat you as my friend. i gave others the same amount of chance as you. but you should know that i had already gave up on relationship. BGR, fuck it man! its a disturbing topic to me! i want to concentrate on others and not this topic until one day i really meet someone that i really like. i have never asked you to continue liking me. in fact i always wanted you to stop because i think that's the best for you and me. why are human being so greedy? being friends is not good enough?
one general advice to guys:

PETTY GUYS ARE THE MOST HATED KIND!

you really hurt me. seriously. i'm so sad and bad mood. you will never understand. try to think about it yourself. have i done anything to deserve all these? you can hate me if you want. i'm really tired. i'm already suffering from some stress disorder. i cant sleep and my stress level is high. you just worsen it. i'm not putting all the blames on to you. but i wish that you will think for me in my shoe. i have been lying on bed sleepless night after nights. i might go crazy in any time. even though i'm looking alright on the surface.

sorry that i hurt you. sorry very much.